Today has been one of those days where my mind is wondering a million miles per second and it's difficult to focus. Today has been one of those days where my body is physically sensing something is happening or going to happen and I'm feeling off my game.... like anxiety.
I wrote in my journal to help ease my mind of the worries fears that were running through it. I journaled in a way that felt like a quiet prayer to my Father in Heaven. I expressed my fears about things that are weighing oh so heavily on my heart.
While sitting at my desk tonight, I turned to look at this desk calendar and instantly felt a little bit better about my decision to journal/pray earlier.
It's so hard to struggle silently. Sometimes I choose to and sometimes I don't. Making the decision to not share certain things with people is out of the norm for me but I'm trying really hard to make some changes in my life and that is one of them. But reading this is just another reminder that I'm not struggling silently.
God heard me. He hears me. He's listening and he knows the worries of my soul. I'm trying hard to trust him but I think I need to try harder. I'm going through the motions of discipleship but I'm not doing anything to really show that I'm yearning for answers to my prayers.
I'm grateful for daily reminders that I need not fear because God is at the helm and I trust in him.
"It is important for members to understand the gospel in the language of their heart so they can pray and act in accordance with gospel principles." - Elder Quentin L. Cook
